"THEY CALL ME"
J. Chapman
They call me caramel cause of my toffee brown skin They call me secretive cause
my beauty also hides within They call me almond girl cause of the shape of my eyes They call me athletic cause of the build
of my thighs They call me long haired cause it falls below my shoulder blades They call me slim cause a low number is what
I weigh They call me a poet cause me words do flow They call me intelligent cause these are the things I know
"ALMOST GOT ME"
J. Chapman
You almost have my mind, and soon after, you will feel my soul
And from then on out, WE will have JOINT control
Once you have my mind, next will be my heart
And there will be nothing that could ever tear us apart
So for now Ill be
Hypnotized thats all I can say
Its how my mind feels at the end of each day
Mesmerized that is the only way to feel
Knowing that you are being nothing but real
Stolen thats what you have done to my heart
I cannot endure the excitement of waiting for this thing to start
Confident I know that we will go somewhere
If we let our minds go to places we would not dare
Reassured I know that things will be fine
I know that we could live, a life so divine
Eternally that is how long you will be mine
Because our relationship will surpass the test of time
Patientsit is the only key
To unlock a future of just you and me
"UNTITLED"
J. Chapman
I came home late last night
I knew he was gonna be mad
Maybe if I sneak in the kids room
He wont go off cause of the fun I had
Its okay, he didnt mean it
The bruise will go away
He didnt mean it, he just got excited
Really, just give it a couple days
Tonight I was only 5 minutes late
Maybe he wont be upset
I brought him home a gift tonight
Maybe in the morning he will forget
The kids are off at school
I can say I fell down the stairs
He didnt mean to push me
I should have called, he says he was scared
Today he said not to go out
And once again, I forgot
Hes cursing me and screaming
Stopping him I cannot
I didnt want the kids
To see me laid out
I hope the caskets closed
I thought the abuse was what love was about
Well last night no one came home
The house was quiet and still
Because of THIS
poem hes locked up
I left everything to the kids in my will
Dont ever let a man hit you
Dont let him make you cry
Dont believe that it was your fault
Because slowly, it will make you die
"IT TAKES TWO"
J. Chapman
From short hair to long hair
Pixies to micro braids
Im changing like the weather
Im changing like the days
I use to be a B cup
Now I believe Im a C
My waist is now a 12
My old clothes dont fit me
From 120 to 135
15lbs in just 4 weeks
My breast are getting heavy
Im getting stretch marks and fat cheeks
I cant keep my food down
But I eat everything in site
My period hasnt come in 3 months
I know something just aint right
My moods change so fast
More times than I can blink my eyes
Dont try to leave now
The blood tests never lie
Were stuck in this together
In 18yrs it can end
What happened to the man
You claimed you were back then
Using protection here and there
Left US with a child
And you better stick around
Even if you have to walk a mile
No one forced this on US
WE knew what we needed to do
Theres nowhere to throw the blame
To have a baby, it takes TWO
"A NEW LIFE"
J. Chapman
I write no longer of sexual pleasures, of intimacy I should know not
I write no longer of hatred, the wrongs against me I have forgave and I forgot
Because the sins committed out of wedlock, give me no pride
I think nothing of them, but from the shame I cannot hide
I will however write of the greatness I will see,
When I wake one glorious morning, and see the Lord smiling at me
Ill write of the life brand new that will start when I am born again
And of the changes and the blessings, for my sinning will have to end
For worldly things are priceless, and they will only be left behind
Ill try to write of valuables, things that will stimulate your mind
Ill dig deep into my soul, and try to explain how it will feel
To be with my heavenly father, who is nothing less than real
Someday Ill tell you the struggle, of how I tried to be like everyone
And Ill tell you how things became harder, once my new life begun
And hopefully in your dreams, I tell you how worth it, it actually was
To give my life Christ, and experience everlasting love.
"S.B.M."
J. Chapman
Body carved from clay, baked to a golden brown
Black men from creation, never to be put down
Symbolizing strength and development of our nation
Beat, bruised and killed, to enable a strong foundation
Muscular and cut, articulate from head to toe
Bound to make a statement, and let people know
How he thrived to produce seeds, to replenish the crops
Which the "man" beat down and tried to stop
But never letting the past hold him back
And for his Nubian Queen he picks up the slack
Arms so tight, skin stretched and smooth
Hands worked hard, but gentle enough to soothe
Chest so defined, precise and strong
There for her head to lay, all night long
From his thighs to his calves, legs meant to run
Perserverance and patients, to get the "job" done
Mentality to handle all that God says he can bear
Heart hard but soft, just enough to show he cares
Created from dirt derived to be great
Creation of a being that was all but a mistake.
"S.B.W."
J. Chapman
Body built of faith, the ultimate power
No man need be with her; Gods her strong tower
Elegance and beauty, in every stride she takes
Helping others around her, learning from ancestral mistakes
Soul built for enduring; surviving all pain
Setting precedents for others, never again shall she be chained
Eyes bright and shining, aware of whats around
Willing to do whatever, always standing her ground
Never holding back, speaking through thick and full lips
Men keeping their eyes locked as they are mesmerized by her hips
Legs long and slim, given strength to withstand
The heartache and pain endured from day one on this land
Helping the brothas still, to build dreams in this nation
From slavery to freedom, she was Gods greatest creation
Able to bear fruit, unlike no other
Not only part founder of this nation but also part mother
If you look into her heart, youll find its solid as gold
And youll see she has a spirit that strong black women behold.
"AND YOU ARE"
J. Chapman
You
caught be by surprise, like a warm winter breeze
Your casual and unique style, had me weak at the knees
You were shy at first but then showed your true colors
And I gained feelings for you, unlike no other
You wanted to be the silent type, not heard by anyone
But yet you want to bring people out like the hot summer sun
And I was one, who came out in your light
Me powder blue, and you, a simplistic white
Cool clam and collective, your head on straight
And I feel I must grab on, before it gets to late
Before you are out of reach, and before youre out of grasp
Stay sweet, and cool, stay real and true
Dont stray too far; I never want to lose you
"MAYBE NO MORE THAN FRIENDS"
J. Chapman
Have I ever told you, how much I REALLY care?
And how I know I can always, count on you being there
And how every time we talk, my heart is filled with joy
And how Im so very glad, that for this long, youve been my boy
I remember way back, when we were little tykes
Going to the same schools, taking that same hike
We would walk all the way home, although almost never together
And we sat in the same classes. And would joke and talk forever
As the years passed us by, we both quickly matured
Our personalities began to vary, and our self-esteem was re-assured
And now even though we are apart, and dont see each other every
day
I still REALLY care, and have no doubt that best friends is what
well stay
Through all these yearsas the roads began to get rough
You always kept it real, and that has always been enough
When no one else understood, I could always count on you
I always knew if no one else would, YOU would always come through
Now youre like my brother, even though at times I wanted more
And as I watched you progressed, my heart slowly tore.
But I began to realize, what we were meant to be
Which so no more than friends, and thats okay with me
So I wish you good luck, with all your female friends
And hope that one day youll find a love, which will stay true until
the end
But always know deep down, that regardless of a him or her,
Whatever goes down, Ill always be in your corner.
"I LOVE YOU"
J. Chapman
Your lips I secretly desire to touch
Your arms around my body, I do enjoy much
Your sexy voice, I long to hear
Your entire body I want near
Your comforting smile, I yearn to see
Your toned body here next to me
The masculine touch so divine
That sends chills up and down my spine
The good night sleeps after your call
The way you put me above all
The time that you want to spend
Taking the next step and no longer being just friends
The thought of us sharing our life
You being my husband and I being your wife
The thought of having a future together
And knowing that you could be with me forever
Makes me want to say three words
That are often said, but never really heard
The words that are shared, and are very special between two
Those three simple words, I LOVE YOU!
"TOGETHER AGAIN"
J. Chapman
We have been through good times, hard times, and even some bad, but I have learned
ot appreciate all the times we had
Through heartache and pain, through arguments and fights, through love and emotions,
I want to make things right
I love you like no other, my feelings for you are strong, and being on this
earth with out you, I feel like I cant go on
Of course I can live a life all to my self, but you are like a medicine that
heals me when I have bad health
You brightened up my days, given my strength and courage through the night.
You help me spread my wings and through love takes a flight.
You taught me how not to be selfish, and think about others that I meet, you
lifted my spirits when they were down and set me back on my feet
In all these words I send to you, I cant find anything to say that barely expresses
my love for you that grows each and every day.
I wish that we could be together once again, and spend life eternally with a
love will never end.
"ABANDONED"
J. Chapman
You left me at a tender young age
Not quite prepared to walk across lifes stage
Not ready to perform any of my acts
To the crowds of Hispanics, Orientals, white or blacks
But I still walked out, alone and in fear
But deep in my heart, I always kept you near
Upset with how things were going I decided to change my ways
With hopes of meeting you again some day
Through the heart ache from mom, and the disappointment from my
brother
To the decision of being alone, after you I looked to no other
Wondering about how life would be outside this world
My body growing and changing, no longer a little girl
Trying new things, new people to meet
Dying to grow up, rip and run in the streets
From sex to alcohol, experiencing life
Learning too early of heartbreak, physical and mental strife
Not knowing where to turn, or which way to run
Thinking of dating a pharmacist, matter of fact, I think Im in
love with one
As if I am a burden, I feel depressed and let down
There are always issues when it comes to me, so maybe I wont stay
around
From the petty arguments with grown people to the worries of family
To the hatred in my heart that I will always carry with me
Shutting everyone out, not letting a single soul in
Giving up on hopes of joy, waiting for things to end
Constant pressure built up, not knowing what to do
And constantly confused because I dont have you
Looking to other fathers, maybe there Ill find love
Putting the few good times I have, aside and trying to be with
you above
Not leading a great life, not too many role models
Instead of heart being full, its empty and hollow
Often thinking of ways to end all this pain
No consideration for others, bit not wanting to dishonor your name
But as they tell me, your seed, I will one day be like you
I begin to do my best and with myself stay true
"THE
END IS NEAR"
J. Chapman
Every so often, youll let go of a hand,
Someone else has to leave this land.
You dont always have an answer and dont always know why,
But it is the cycle of life, when He calls, we must reply.
You cry, you scream, you tremble with fear,
But it is just a sign that the end is near.
As an elementary school child, you live a care free life,
Then you lose a parent and learn to early, the meaning of strife.
So you fear every move, are scare of every relationship,
And you could never prepare better next time, never be more equipped.
So you cry, you scream, you tremble with fear,
But it is just a sign that the end is near .
Befriending others in the middle school halls,
And suddenly you find that the good Lord has called,
Another one of you friends to be with him in the air.
You are lonely and feel pain because they are no longer there.
Again you cry, you scream, you tremble with fear,
But it is just a sign that the end is near.
In high school you are mature, you can handle things well,
But once again from your grasp, another hand has fell.
You cant take it, not again, yet you feel to big to cry.
Yet, it is too overwhelming to hear that someone else had to die.
So you cry, you scream, you tremble with fear,
But it is just a sign that the end is near.
In life I made connections, and had to watch many fall.
I try to believe its okay, theres a time for us all.
So I cried and I screamed, and I trembled with fear,
And I remembered that this too shall pass, the end times are just near.