G. Stokes

I never leave my house without my blue pen. So I can write down my emotions that I have that I want to turn into poems. My poems change since day one and my thoughts change every minute. So I write down my golden thoughts so I can share them with you. So the things I write I want you to read but also understand.

G. Stokes

In life, I heard you get your lifetime friends in college. Well since I'm not in college, I still think that these are my college years. I hope saying that isn't wrong, cause you are my friend, a very cool one I might add. Someone who is very unique, brown skin with blue eyes...scientist can't even figure that out. Boys who stood you up are playing themselves. I think I know why. Because they never seen such a beautiful lady quite like yourself.

G. Stokes

In your life at one time I felt that I as your everything, but now I don't have that feeling anymore. I feel that I'm half important. Of course your two boyfriends should come before me. I don't know what to think. My cousin said I shouldn't get to attached. I see why he says that now we would stay up late at night to keep each other company and because we didn't want to get off of the phone. Whenever I would hear teh word "Hi" come out of your mouth I would get excited. But now I hardly hear the word "Hi" out of your mouth. And when I get online and see you're name on there you don't say nothing to me. I mean you can call it whatever you want to, but its the principal of things. I don't know where are are friendship is going but I know as of now. I'm too invovled.

G. Stokes

I tried so many times to find the right girl, but I never hit gold. Its nothing but heartache after heartache. Not having a high school sweetheart, maybe is the cause of this lonieness. Lying in bed playing slow jams just thinking at the sametime crying. There's billions of girl out there! I guess I have bad luck, cause I always find the wrong one. The ones that do dirt and never think how I will feel afterwards. The ones that lied in my face. I'm through with girls even though our relationship lasted for a short while, the heartache doesn't go away.

G. Stokes

I want to know you for a good five or six years before I ask that questions which requires me to get down on one knee. Up and downs we have to go through, cause if we don't I won't be sure if you'll leave me or have my back. To being there by my side on the loniest nights, then in my arms on the most romantic nights. Someone who is not even an arm length away while the stars are bright. Me and you following the sunset all the way around the earth then lying on the Bahamas beaches having a heck of a wedding and a honeymoon that would last for a full month. My queen, my lady will get all this plus a king.

G. Stokes

Riding around in my car with the windows down listening to some old school music. Looking at how the city has changed since I was little...remembering what was in its original place before they went out of business and got tooken over by another company. Revisiting my old elementary school...swing from the jungle jim and doing a bellyflop off of the top bar...I laugh because most of my burses came from trying that move. Go back to the old neighborhood where the younger years of my life was spent...passing each house I think of the person who lived there and all of the memories I have of that person. The very first basketball court that I ever touched was behind my house. The little park we called it...it had orange swings...the twisty slide just had a slide. The big park...had swings on both sides with a big slide. The red and yellow park...had everything even the pissy slide, who could forget that. The way I talk about it you would think its still there, but its gone...nothing but field is there now. Bay, Ron, Mike, Lil Jeff, Giovanni, Perry, Terry and David is most of the boys I hung around with. Playing cops and robbers on bikes and swimming in the little pool...you know the one you can just put your foot on and the water just comes running out of it. That and water gun fights is how we stayed cool through the summer. Flipping through the old photo albums that I collected through the years...seeing all the hairdos...from the box to the braids and now the fresh low cut. Events like winter school concerts to field days to field trips out of the town to a farm. Proms...homecoming, crushes and ex-girlfriends all this thoughts are flying through my head. Its like when I'm not thinking about these memories it feels like I'm gone...but when I'm thinking about these things...its feels like I'm home sweet home.

G. Stokes

You're trying to figure me out, why? You'll never understand me, I'm on a higher level than you. When we're at school and you pass in the halls and say nothing. You saw me, but didn't speak what's up with that? Its like I'm adding two plus two and it equals sixteen, it doesn't make sense. Its like you want me to take sometime out of my life and give it to you, but in return you can't do that for me. Never that ma. And that past sunday you was foul! Saying that stuff after what we did on saturday! Okay, I'm going to get beat up, alright. You see, we tried things your way. Now tis my way. You know of me, you don't know me.

G. Stokes

Everyday I wish I was rich. The ice, cars, ladies I'll push that to the side. I see you living the life that looks hard through my eyes, but to you it might be easy. Pushing that babygirl everywhere you go through spring, summer, fall and winter. For you are not the baby's mother, you're the strong baby's grandmother. We never held a conversation before and I don't know you from the next person. My and mind are set out on you. Once I get that money there's only one question I have to ask you, "What kind of car do you want?"

G. Stokes

I don't get it. You like me and I like you. So what's holding you back? You say that I do things that your first love has never done. So what's holding you back? Is it your ex? He can't compare to me. So what's holding you back? You know that I'm different from all these other guys. So what's holding you back? And the things I do for you is to show you that I really care. So what's holding you back? The slow jam tape, the poem with a rose while you was on the clock, plus more and I'm just a friend. So what's holding you back? But I got to say goodbye you took to long. Its time to move on. You had a good thing in front of your face but now its gone.

G. Stokes

You were a BIG part in my life, but you were only there for a short time. A special night we'd shared that either of us would forget. Some would say, "you're not ready!", when I was going to propose to you. They were right, I'm not ready for marriage, the only reason I thought that was because you treated me right, we clicked and I never clicked with nobody else that way before. You were the milestone of my life, I can't tell the futre but for right now in life you are.

G. Stokes

4 months and counting you have been gone. What you wanted to be remembered by, is how everybody remembers you. Kind-hearted, nice and last but not least streets but sweet. People who didn't even know you, knew you was an angel. Rock da boat video turned out wonderful they caught glimspes of you that will be inbeaded in everybodies mind for as long as they live. For all the holidays you missed, happy thanksgiving, merry christmas and happy new year's! For today is a special day, its your 23rd birthday! Happy birthday to you, as the days go on I'll pass on your name. May you rest in peace babygirl, until next time...Goodnight.

G. Stokes

I see...you and me on a boat, not just any boat and not just anywhere. We're sailing the smooth waters of Italy in one of those romantic boats. As the sailer harmonize your favorite song, we sit there eating by candle light. As we finish our big plate of pasta including Italian bread we sip on one of the best wines. Once finished we intake some of the best orange sherbet chesscake.

G. Stokes

I wanna fine girl like Mya, sexy girl like Amil, sex apeal like Aaliyah that has me going insain. A voice like Babygirl, corn rolls like Alicia Keys. Cute smile with dipples like Halle B. Morvado watch wear rocking ginbuan jeans, those slim chicks that be slipping into parasuco's jeans. Calvin Klein models, that'll put Tommy Hilfiger girls to shame. A girl like Lil Kim, who get this place jumping, throw Foxy Brown into this mix and you're sure to get something, white nike dc wearing chick, like my homegirl J.Lo. A fast and furious girl like Ms Marion Jones, put 3LW together and you'll get a woman with cat eyes like Beyounce. French mixed with some black like Garcelle Beauves, my hip-hop chick now how would that be?

G. Stokes

A relationship that was short. You were my friend's girlfriends sister. And I must say, you had it going on. From the lips to the hips and everything between. Sexy smile with a beautiful voice. I had saw you from afar and told my friend to hook it up and he did. We wrote letters back and forth at first before you knew what I look liked. Just to see where your head was. It was on tight. I still remember putting my jacket over your arms when we stayed after school. And walking you all the way home just to run back from da hole to the View. To me you're rememberd as a time. I don't know why, but you are. Gossip was this relationship breakup. So sad I just wonder what we could have been.

G. Stokes

Like flowers you all come in different shades like a rainbow. The most beautiful thing I have seen since I have been on this place called earth. You're the backbone, in a strong relationship. You nurish the baby that's in your womb and at teh same time you can handle everything that's thrown your way. Your patients is at a very high level and your emotional level is stronger than anybody builder. No other has it harder then you, but you still smile while the rain is pouring down on you. You give off a warm feeling that makes us feel stable. In your womb, isn't just a baby. Its a special baby, a black baby that was made out of love that two shared. You are a black female and us are the black male. Without you they'll be no us. So stand tall and proud and celebrate black history month.

"STILL IN MY HEART"

G. Stokes

Even though you're far, you're still in my heart.

Even though we fight, you're still in my heart.

Even though you cheated on me, you're still in my heart.

Even though it seemed like you wanted me out of your life, you're still in my heart.

Even though we don't talk as much as we use to, you're still in my heart.

Even though you called me some things I don't like to be called, you're still in my heart.

Even though you can't talk about your problems with me, you're still in my heart.

Even though you were here one day and disappeared the next day, you're still in my heart.

EVen though you tell me lies time after time, you're still in my heart.

EVen though you say you're going call and don't, you're still in my heart.

Even though when it was just me and you, you would talk about other boys, you're still in my heart.

Even though you say you're going to send something and it doesn't show up at my house within three months later, you're still in my heart.

So it looks like, you're still in my heart no matter what.

G. Stokes

A girl with smooth soft skin and big brown eyes. Pretty girl with an attachable smile. I never seen her frown and I'm hoping I won't have to. She carries herself with respect. Rocks nothing but gold and designer clothes. Our eyes have connected more then once, but our words never connected, not even once. To the block 5 girl...I got my eye on you.

G. Stokes

What we use to have is over now. We both know that we are just friends now. But when we had a relationship its like you took me for a joke. But now I'm with someone who said something that you couldn't, you're just jealous of her. And now you see what you DID have, and you want me back. But you noticed a little to late.

G. Stokes

It was dark in the theatre, the only light that shined was from the movie screen. My friend and I came with but we all splitted up all over the theatre. The place was packed but there was a vacant seat right next to me. You spilled in late making a big enterance or atleast to me. Your thin hair came a quater length pass your shoulders. I said please let her sit next to me atleast 12 times in my head. And what do you know you sat next to me, making my night more exciting. We commented on the movie back and forth, I knew you were digging me, cause I was digging you. Somehow my arm got around your shoulder and we were cuddled up like we was at home. We may not be the same race or wore the same shirt, but we did have on the same shoes.

G. Stokes

To me you're more than a friend, that other woman ain't a thing to me. Tonight when you come over to visit me I want you to be out of sight. The diamonds, pearls that ain't me. Don't worry I want call you a bitch. All the ladies say I'm a ladies man but I told you I'm not. Baby you don't know what you be doing to me. In the long run don't cry for me, last night was off the chain. And when you do come over I'm going to be a man.

G. Stokes

I remember the happy days like it was yesterday, when I was your sweetie and you were my baby. Us being together was like Voo Doo or it would only happen in the movies. My number 1 dream about me being with you became true. I was young in love and foolish. I had it bad. When you would say call back, I'll say what time? I was head over hills for you. Things seemed to be going too good, I felt scared, I felt that someone to rescue me from this fast lane. Before I knew it this girl was leaving me for no explainable reason. Since I experieced this heartache, I'll know for the next time I'll be unfoolish.

G. Stokes

For I could never turn back to yesterday. My friends of today are here to stay. My friends of yesterday let go and are far away. For if you tried to rekendul our friendship it will not be the same like before. The bad moments of yesterday are fresh and are here to stay. So why have you in my present if things aren't going to be the same? The things that once attached me to you as a friend are no longer there. For they say you need friends in life. So that enliminates you. You are from the past which means you forgot about me and you are far away. For my friends of today are here to stay.

"MY FRIEND AND I"

G. Stokes

We shared a lot laughs, cries, and smiles.

We walked the same hallways in high school.

We chilled all the time at my locker during lunch.

We talked are problems out with each other, without sugar coding it.

The hugs, I'll always remember.

The tough love, I'll never forget.

Even though we didn't go out in high school, you were my high school sweetheart.

Friends for three years going on four, but we'll always be friends for the rest of our lives.

I remember the first day the you walked into each other lives,

and I remember the last time I saw you, but I just hope it wasn't.

One thing about my friend and I we had love for each other that went deep.

G. Stokes

It was a nice sunny breezy sunday the two previous days before that things were haywired. The scheduled me some different hours in the morning and I'll get off early. Now as I tell you this incident my relationship with one, was coming closer and closer as the days went on. Out of a seriousness level we ranked at a 3 out of a 5. We dip into every topic that a teens usually talks about. As the beautiful sunday went on, the clouds in the sky's began to change. The rays off the sun was behind the dark clouds. The time is now around eight, the time my friend was getting off. At that moment it began to rain and thunderstorm and even lighten. If I had a car, I would have picked her up. But things didn't work out that well as I planned. It started to rain harder and harder and the way she gets home is usually by a cab. I opened up my front door to look at God's tears. It was rainning so much that I won't even get out there myself. All of a sudden the phone rung and broke me out of my calm and quick daydream. I ran to the phone, I said "Hello" but all I heard was a tone. Just a couple of seconds after they called night back. I picked up the phone and yelled, "Listen, whoever this is..." I get interupted by a weak gentle female voice of my friend. She said slowly come quick, we just got into a accidents. "Let me get my things, I'll be down there in a few seconds." I grab my key and ran out with nothing but a tee-shirt and soem gray jogging pants. When I approached the scene it didn't look good. Survior of this crash is at a very, very low rate. But I praied to God that everything was going to be okay. I searched through the rubel, but heard no sounds of life. I searched faster throught the rebel until the cops got there that's when they had to pull me off. That when I saw my friend just lying there.

G. Stokes

The ride to the hospital was very quick, I held her hand and never thought of letting go of it. I know she's a live cause the baby is kicking inside. You see this is how the accident happen. The cab driver tried to aviod a reckless driver he rode up a tree, but you see that's not the end of the story. The monster truck behind them hit the reckless driver which sent the truck landing on the back end of the cab. Now I sit at her side still holding her hand and my other hand was on her stomach, which is where my baby lays. Every now and then the doctor would come up and check-up on me, this one time he asked about a premature birth. I said "Yeah, that will be good. That's the best thing to do." Next thing, I found myself looking into the operation room. I heard a noise then I looked left, it was an elderly couple who really needed my help. When I helped them it only took a couple of seconds. When I returned to the window the doctor was waiting, "Mr. Edwards, sorry to tell you, but their both gone."